lightbulbs going off!

It's strange how things change and you don't realize it until it just suddenly dawns on you. I was talking to shu the other day, and she asked me "are you happy?" and I thought for a split second and realized, "Yes, I'm happy." what a wonderful revelation. and this is despite receiving 35 rejection letters and thinking that I'm completely unemployable. wow. i chalk it up to all the kisses i've been getting recently. Yup, first base rocks!

and I've realized that I am super neurotic...to the point where I worry that things are going too well. stupid, i know, but I go through vaccination periods. Think of it like the flu shot: give the relationship a mini-flu to prevent the big massive influenza. Or, if you want to think in IR terms, we are launching a pre-emptive strike before there is a full-out war. But then again, I should learn from the Shrub - pre-emptive strikes tend to cause wars and loss of civilian life and the bombing of hospitals, even if I stand to gain a lot of oil (so does that mean that feelings would be hurt unnecessarily, but there could be great make-up sex?). I think i've lost the analogy...

and while we're on the up and up, i got an email on friday offering to publish my dissertation. in the words of guru shay: "can i getta boo-yah?!" I am going to be a published author. yay me! granted, it's a start-up academic journal, but hey, publishing is publishing. let's not get too persnickity.

feeling: FAB-U-LOUS!
listening to: Dave Matthews Band - Crash into Me