What's love?

I came to a realization of sorts about over a year ago: (I thought at the time) "I'm 23 and I've never been in love" - things haven't changed much since then...

so, dear readers, here's the question to you: how do you know that you're in love? (I feel like I just had a Carrie Bradshow moment). I mean, what if you're looking for it, and all the while, you're don't know that it's in front of you? (I'm not saying that I'm in love, but in the words of the fabulous Madonna: "falling deeper and deeper.)"

menzies and mah and i were talking about it the other night. My theory is that love is when you have perpetual giddiness. Like a crush that never ends. at least, that's what I've been waiting for (as apparently, has menzies and mah. of course, we've spent much of our lives being single, so maybe we've got it wrong). usually, the crush ends as soon as there is some inkling of commitment or reciprocation. or the crush never comes to anything at all. of course, the problem with my theory is that you never knew that you were in love until that crush ends. most people say that that state of perpetual crush is impossible. so does that mean that people are settling? I would like to think that they are, but maybe it's just the hopeless romantic in me.

for the first time in my life, i have ended up with a crush. and the crush is still there AND the crush is reciprocated! mind you, it's early days yet...but is that what's left...waiting for the other shoe to drop? I look at you sometimes and think: "Can i trust you? will you hurt me? or even worse, will i hurt you?"

god. when did become so neurotic?!

mood: retrospective
listening to: Modern English: I Melt With You